changes changes

I feel like I used to make a big deal about changes and events. Moving to Colorado after a lifetime in the northeast was a dramatic move, and back when I actually used myspace I remember writing a hilarious account of the simple cross-country drive. Today the idea of something like a going-away party for me makes me laugh. Now changes simply unfold and are expected and enjoyed. I am not sure if I have simply lost awe for doing these things of if I have simply fallen comfortably into this way of life. Perhaps this is why I have not written anything in a while or even taken more then a handful of pictures in the last eight months. Every now and then I read quotes or parts of books or something that really seem to make sense right then and there. A couple days ago while reading the first Zine put out by Luke Mehall for the 8th or 9th time I read this in a line written by Scott Borden. "Let us not be too dramatic about change." This reflected the way I had been thinking about myself lately. I also recently had a conversation with my friend Carrie, who spoke of a yogic way of thinking which (long story short) preaches that whatever you are doing right now is exactly what we are supposed to be doing. I like this and it is comforting. Why believe anything else? I have been living in Sonoma County, California since last April (minus two months this summer dubbed 'the summer of love and friends' where I traveled around the country visiting family and friends for specifically that purpose). I accepted a job, established myself under a roof, and gave myself a minimum time duration to stay here. I thought that it was time to stop and put some roots down, maybe even raise a potted plant or something. Now I am being laid off and have been forced to look at my plans from a new perspective. There is no 'supposed to,' or 'it's about time to,' or even 'I"m getting to the age where...' We are doing exactly what we are supposed to be doing right here and now, and I am happy to have mellowed out about changes and plans. I'm always making plans, but the right ones will be the ones that unfold. I am confident in that.